Narcissistic / Sociopathic Abuse: When The Mask Slips & Their True Self

In The End

Just about no one gives a fuck.

People are so focused on themselves--what THEY want and THEIR feelings that they are too goddamn selfish to think about others.  Anything beyond their damn blinders is undermined or reduced to being ignored.

Move On?

Me ex is still hurting me and hurting my son and the only thing my parents tell me is that I have to move on with my life?!  FUCK YOU.

No One's There

So what can it be? 

No one hears me call,

Echoes back at me

No ones there.

To all these nameless feelings I cant deal with in my life

To all these greedy people trying to feed on what is mine

You’ve got to fill your hunger and stop fucking with my mind.

I know its time to leave these places far behind.

"No One's There" by Korn 

Alone I Break

I am hoping I can find

where to leave my hurt behind

All this shit I seem to take

all alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man?

"Alone I Break" by Korn

Feeling

I feel a little bit better today but I know it is temporary.  I am exhausted mentally, physically, and spiritually.  I don't feel like doing much other than laying on the couch.  I feel somewhat lifeless.  I've been trying to get fresh air and sunlight each day but it feels futile.  My feelings weigh me down.  They are like giant demons tied to my ankles, dragging me below the surface of the water to drown.

Sometimes I Think:

I know some people tell me they care.  But they are not filling the holes that need to be filled.  It's not enough.  I still feel so empty.